More of a Rant than a Muse

Doesn't anyone have any pride in themselves anymore? Doesn't anyone know what the feeling of a good day's work is - something that you can be proud of. I have worked at the same place for way too long - just shy of 35 years. When I started there as a quiet kid with no experience of the world except for life on a farm, there were a couple of people who worked there who one could respect, once could look up to and admire. If you ever heard them talk about themselves and their work, you realized that they actually had a right to brag a little. When I look back on the way these fellows were, they were hard working, hard living - but they did things that you could respect, and in turn they respected you.
They have long since retired and passed on. They did not know how a young kid looked up to them and how the young person took on some of these ways in order to become a respectful person. This good working relationship did not last. Now we have people who are there to kiss ass, suck up to the boss, the boss is an idiot - not fit to be one - no backbone. The things they do ( I cannot call it work) are just enough to get by, it is shoddy, it is not something to brag about. We are in the customer service business, and the crappy attitude and work they portray is shameful. I really wonder what the customers think.
There is one of the 'old timers' still working there also and he is one who started there as a young kid along with myself and worked alongside the older fellows when I started. He looked up to them and he learned from them and they ran a "good ship". Now he is shunned by the other slackers, but he still keeps on going, doing the best he can do, and he does a damn good job of whatever he takes on. But these slackers, and idiot, loudmouth bosses and co-workers get the credit for him making the place look good.
Where is the fairness in this case.
Today some little thing, not sure exactly, broke the camel's back, so to speak and I got angry. Now for me to speak up for anything in the outside world is unusual. I know that I do not come across as I would like to. I let things build up until finally one day they just get the best of me. That is when I wish that I could just calmly go in to the boss, sit down and have a meaningful discussion, tell him how disappointed I am in the way things are and hope that he sees the light and smartens everyone and everything up. OH, but that would be Disney. So I curse a little, and I fume and I almost cry and make a fool of myself. Then I feel bad about it for days on end. I don't think anyone else really notices, and if they do they just think I am being - well I guess I really don't know what they think - but I get down on myself.
So, I thought that I should put this on my blog. It gets it off my chest. I hope that it is therapeutic. I hope that someday, someone out there may come across this and understand how I feel.
I hope the world is better tomorrow and that someday I can say something meaningful and it will make a difference.